Music

Welcome to my ethereal story, featuring the lovely voice of Grimes on vocals, via GrimesAI and collaboration with Elf Tech.

I had wanted to do some songs with the GrimesAI vocal ever since I heard about it back in June, ‘23. I set to work on December 10th, and finished the project by the end of December. The project involved resurfacing content from old computers for songs I had written in 2006 under the moniker “Seoup T. Gei” as part of songfight.org, as well as content from songs written in 2010 when I was recovering from hand surgery, plus new renditions of two of my previously-released songs, songs that I had always intended to have sung by someone with a voice like Grimes’.

This six-song EP is a story about a being struggling to cope with their own self awareness, humanity, and emotions. I felt like each song sort of portrays a condition: (1) low self-esteem & anger/rage (2) manic episodes (3) borderline behavior (4) despair & depression (5) schizophrenia, and finally (6) institutionalization. The story ends with a single flat-line note played on an organ, representing a heart that has stopped beating.

This little work of art is just a little prayer for those who suffer from the often-silent torture of mental illness.

As part of this project, I’ve set up a little donation page at the NAMI. No money goes to me.

Lastly, I’m very grateful to Grimes for allowing fools like me to play with her voice. It was a fair amount of work to get it to sound like it does (for example, I had to re-sing every line of every song with a strong attention to staying on pitch and using crystal-clear diction) but it was a heck of a cathartic good time making it! The little icons below link out to various platforms where you can listen to the album.